time
7/18/2009 10:49:13 PM

i step carefully, unsure

people talk and i listen but can't hear
they speak softly or i'm losing my hearing
either way, i am too embarrassed to ask them to repeat
i used to say "huh?" because i was shocked
but now i genuinely can't hear you

i'm twenty-one
i shouldn't be losing my hearing

we are advancing for the worse
kids with add/adhd
autism

it is no random chance that these things are developing
as our technology advances
and we learn to be anti-social
and our brains even develop differently now

studies show how one thing is good and bad for you
carbs, antioxidants and cancer all in one
my grandma lives on a soda a day
and she's still ticking

i admire those that knew food before hormones
that had dirt roads and spent time with their families
honest living, honest lives
of course this wasn't always the case
but i'd like to think it was more abundant back then

exactly how far back??
how far back would i have to go into time
to not be ashamed of our society

in truth we are better and worse
a "black" president (that's not all he is)
but the queer community still has no rights
at least we took our time, at one time
no need to speed down the street
to work
because we were running late
and got our coffee
through a drive through
even though we were already due at work

we rely on things so much more now
dependent upon drugs and people
technology mostly
how would a kid survive a car ride without an ipod or movie

everyone is so bored now and we have more than ever to entertain them

these things make me sad
and i wonder
if anyone else thinks of these things
late at night
when they can't sleep
and i feel guilty because i haven't picked up a book in awhile...